Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Thursday, March 13, 2008

She said:

I escape.
I avoid. I remain nonchalant.
I cast it aside.
I wanted to make my life simpler.
I don’t want to think too much.
I want to live life as it goes.

It’s been like that since the last one. I know I shouldn’t do this. I shouldn’t keep running away from my problems and lack the courage to face up to reality. I am quite a coward to say the least. But, i am not sure of what i want and all... So, i chose to put it aside and wait for the answer to be brought to me. Yes, that's not being fair but for now, i guess its the best solution as it is yet.

I don't want the distance of an ocean.
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Ok, another abstract piece since my last long long post... its not exactly directly related to me at all... just some random thoughts to start this new post. ever since the last. It's being long overdue i know and its gonna be long.. so just stop reading here.

Reason for choosing this day for my blog piece: Its results day (and, its more than just results) and the thought of Dennis when he asked about our results and made us set our aims. We exchanged our aims and report our results. But, not now anymore. I made a promise that i will fulfil my aims because of him. So, if anybody is the source of motivation for me, it would have to be him. Thank you, dennis.

When i said its long overdue, yes it is. Because i wanted to blog on his one yr anniversary, but i thought today would make it extra meaningful. I remembered the times we sat in the clubhouse and exchanged our aims and goals. And, i remembered the cremation day last year was the release of our results. its been a year.

Memories as if yesteryear.
The shout-outs from the bridge.
The fun-filled sessions we had.
The msn conversations.
The friend I found in you.

All's been well. I looked back at the post of March 2006 and read through how i captured you at my best memories. At least, its imprinted and i can always look back. But, shron, you captured him best.

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Now, as promised its gonna be a long post.. so too bad. pls stop here if you are really reading.. because its really long... haas. long overdue! And, as like always i have no pictures.

Results. well, its been ok i guess..And, i am satisfied, especially after the worry. The previous night has been a toss and turn because of the worry for how it will all turn out. I know i did not do too well for feat and radio because of the last 2 assgns. And, that's been nagging at me. I have always loved feat. writing even though the outcome has always been blatant or a staggering disappointment. So, now i don't dare to say i love writing as it is. Has that fire diminished?

I chose the electives:
Integrated Mar. comm
Photojournalism
Public relations

Now, i pray for the miracle to happen for me to get into these choices! I know PR will be kind of hard since i placed in at the third but i still hope for the miracle to happen.

Why photojourn? Many would ask. Even i myself toyed with this idea for a long time before finally placing it down. Well, i have always loved photography. ok, love is a strong adjective. More the adoration and infatuation. I only possess a normal digital cam. Not the SLR, neither the DSLR. So, i wonder how i will survive in it. But, i believe if i get into it, it will be the one module i will really enjoy myself and go the extra mile.

A picture tells a thousand words. How can one live without images?

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Lastly, i am starting to get tired of all these typing and long post. Argh. But, how can i conside this a LONG OVERDUE post if i don't mention this factbite that i am FLYING soon. to Beijing. Nah, its not the olympics though i could probably sneak off and stay there till the olympics. But, i wont.

yea, to those i have mentioned countless of times, i am goin beijing for a study trip. Only 10 days from 2 April. But, its my first plane ride of my life. (laugh here if you want, but its true.) I am finally one step closer to freedom and one step closer to fulfilling my dream of travelling around the world.

Even though i would have liked my first stop to be SPAIN but one cannot be too greedy, right? Learn to be satisfied not to be satiated. One day, i will go Spain. But, for now. Beijing it shall be. At least, its an SQ flight.

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Phew.

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;