Sunday, December 31, 2006
A couple of hours or so. A brand new year will come knocking on our doors or windows for those who dont have a door ( as if! ). At this last couple of hours before we welcome this spanking new year, what am i doing?
Many people choose to go for a raving party either at Vivo City or one of the various countdown parties around the island. For others, a vigil may be observed with the family. Or we can choose to write down our resolutions for the new year and reflect on the past year. Guess which option i choose to 'abode'? well.. yes.. thats kind of obvious since i am here and not raving mad outside; where the crowd is. Listing down resolutions and wishes for the new year are kind of a hogwash and to some complete bollocks! But you can never blame the girl for trying even though I know and you know that for me to follow these resolutions are kinda far-fetched. Yea.. So let thou begin my list:
1) relieve my workload
2) excel in my studies
3) stay out way past midnight
4) growing taller? (well.. its kind of impossible )
5) travelling overseas ( and its not malaysia )
6) indulge in something exciting
7) Do something i have never done before
8) able to fulfil my responsibilities
9) enjoy myself to the fullest
10) be NOT afraid of pets...
Ok.. that done, what about the more emotional ones? Not the crying-emotional nor the gut-clutching laughter but just that it is cognitive. Well, it might be just a futile attempt by humans to make their year appear a better one and a more organised life but it does no harm to continue believing in what we call destiny and hope, even if its just a glimmer.
I wish to:
1) be happy and carefree
2) for others around me to stop their rivalry and live in harmony
3) thank all those who love me for who i am and never give up on me
4) to be just me
5) just have a happy new year
I am not some saint who prays for world peace and cease fire because i know its all impossible but i can only wish for those i know to be safe and happy. Thats not too greedy is it? Just five little wishes for me to cling on to and ten resolutions to make my life appear nicer; a fantasy u called it? But who cares? Do we even have to think that much just to write these down? i dont think so. Its in our physical self, emotional self and spiritual being.
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After these, stand up with me and let the new year rush into our embrace. let us welcome this year full of surprises, happiness and excitement BECAUSE this is the ending of a new beginning. The start of the end. The birth of a new nation begins when the chime sounds.
This is it. Thank you for the past year of bliss and let me have more years of bliss to come!
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Friday, December 29, 2006
Sometimes its feels as if time is not by your side and that everything is just moving too fast. U cant pull the lever to make it short and you can't snap your fingers to make the world come to a standstill. Yet, sometimes people just need a breather. Even if its the tiniest moment in life to pause and rest. yes. Even that. See how desperate i m.. And u better believe it.. desperate for some time to rest. Some time away from all the insanity wrapping my life now.. I am screaming, like a silent protest against all that takes my breath. My voice raw from emotions, my mind a whirlwind of images, but i continued my tyranny amongst all the others.
Because, it is this that kept me going. The adrenaline cruising through my veins serves as my petrol to move, to go. After this, i w won't complain no further. Or do I? Come to think of it, no single moment i spend is wasted. Because, like what Mitch Albom said, " Only time spent thinking that you are alone is time wasted." I am not alone in this battle. I have people who care for me. And, being alive is the greatest thing being bestowed upon. Nobody is born to be wasted. Nobody is born to be useless. Because, you are alive while others are not. Sometimes, people sacrifice so that others can live; for a purpose. Even if its for a stranger. 'cause, a stranger is just family you have yet to recognise. Everyone of our lives intersect in one way or another. We may not recognise the person we pass on the street or the person you knocked into on your way out. Yet, our lives have already intersected. Some of the stuff we wont make sense of now but we'll in the future.
Love ourselves before you learn to love others.
The above seems very philosophical and might just be a load of crap but they are my thoughts and so be it. I learnt a lot from Mitch Albom. He's a great writer.
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Went out wif jel n zj today.. haas.. kind of long since i last saw either of them.. esp jel.. that girl went MISSING! haas.. i almost put out a search for her.. haas.. kidding! But anyway, an enjoyable movie: Night at the museum and a game of bowling.. hmm.. which apparently i do not know how in the earth to bowl.. So, i ended up throwing the ball instead.. And, it went so slow that it jammed the machine.. grr.. But, well.. its fun.. A break from my insanity! haas.. School reopening soon.. Lets all have a good year ahead...
Happy new year 2007...
P.S. get rid of my workload...
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Saturday, December 23, 2006
I am really suppossed to be doing my para outlines now.. i mean seriously.. the assignments are like piling up.. who says this sem is going to be an easy life? i beg to differ.. i shld really peel myself off from this technology which robs my precious time.. I have minimal time and yet i spend them typing away at this place... Argh.. really shld get off.. oh.. come on..
But its going to be christmas soon.. Surely i deserve a break? even if it jus a small small one..
After the malaysia trip, thinga hav been kind of hectic.. Been rushing my projs, meetings and all... Sometimes it feels as though 24 hrs are hardly enough.. Bring on the 36hrs.. the 72 hrs( oh.. i hope not..)! i mean.. its christmas ppl.. Its party time.. Don be a sod.. get urself out dere in the crowd.. let the lights along orchard roas blind you with their dazzle.. let the music make you groove away.. let the world around you dissolve into tiny bits and trickle away.. this is what all of us deserve.. A party of the nation!
Yet, access denied.
Reasons we know. Reasons not worth knowing. But, i console myself with the New Year! At least smth to look forth.
In the morning, i don feel good. In fact, my mood was kind of lousy. I'm unhappy. I shall not flood tis post wif all the misgivings because nobody deserves this right? Its suppossed to be a happy day.. BUt, i hav since recovered. I dont noe y i m always de first to apologise.. first to bow down in the face of an argument. I jus do. Call me coward... Whatever you like because i jus don like to be caught in these matters, because it will jus blow everything out of proportion and at that time.. it will be unstoppable! If its just a sorry that can help matters, let me do it.
But, sometimes SORRY does not help.
But, shall not dwell on it.. because i m really alright again.. nonchalant? not really.. but fine. Because i noe.. Christmas is here. I'll be happy.. Everyone will be happy!
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Friday, December 15, 2006
Went to Sentosa today.. Ask me whats most memorable.. well, the palawan beach will be it.. because its really de cleanest beach i hav ever seen in Singapore.. I wonder * dreams* if THE GREAT BARRIER REEF will be as clean or even better.. clearer blues.. majestic waves ( not tsunami of course ) ... pristine white beach.. Throw in the surfers and some nice, groovy music.. Thats heaven and beyond! ok, snap out of the day dreaming..
We played water and suntan.. or jus about made frens wif the sand.. Haas.. The water is jus nice and cooling.. not the murky waters at coasta sands or pasir ris.. U can even see fishes and crabs.. ok, though seeing crabs are not really worth rejoicing cuz their pincers will attack u if provoked.. n de worse tink is u wont even noe if u provoke it because it might be a case of accidental " step-ons". So anyway, yea it was a fun day.. though i wish i could take all de rides there.. they jus seem so fun yet.... everything costs.. * boo- hoo* Nevertheless, a nice day.. n i gt some sun in my skin so its not dat bad.. i wan a tan! I noe some people wan fair skin but i don really fancy dat..
LAstly, is it jus Singaporeans that has the "kiasu" syndrome? going up buses they want to be the first.. going down buses they want to be the first too.. Queueing up they want to be the first too.. whats de world coming to/ And the THEY mentioned here refers to both foreigners and Singaporeans.. So, who says singaporeans are the "kiasu" lots? i tink it is some sort of psychological effect in everyone.. Or more specifically anyone who happens to be in Singapore! So u see..
Ok.. a short post cuz i hav officially onli less than 4 hrs to sleep.. goin to begin my ODDYSSEY tmr dawn.. or rather at 5? what part of de day is dat? go figure cuz i figure i need my beauty sleep now!
Bon Voyage ( to myself? )
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Do you know that spainiards have three names? One is a name given by the parents just like how we are each given a name at birth. This is called nombre. The second and third ones are the surnames of the parents, known also as apellidos. The first name will be the father's surname, followed by the mother's surname and finally the nombre. Hence, in actual fact Picasso's full name will be Pablo Ruiz Picasso. Interesting, isnt it? A small fact bite from LonelyPlanet.
Sometimes when life gets really boring and you find yourself having nothing to do for the long stretch of the week, what is your first thought? That excludes the word BORED! You racked your brains for something to do, something to take your mind off from whatever thats bothering you but you end up with nothing! Isn't it really pathetic? No.. this is not a depressing thought nor a depressing post but rather what i call an informative one that provides ideas to clear your boredom. Everyone one of us gets bored one of these days... You will question the routine of life and the way you live it. Here are some answers for the boring ones:
a) break social norms which is suppose to be a "project" that we are to do for social psy. Guess what we did? Some went up to random people to ask for signatures. Some ask: " how many steps are there from here to the convention centre? Because the fortune teller says that i can only take 50 steps today and i have laready taken 45 steps". Some walked into the lift and starts talking to the walls itself. Some stand outside the toilet and bow to every single one who walks out. Well, hilarious isn't it? Though thats not to say we did all of the above, only selected few. Yes. embarrassing but its a thrill.
b) indulge yourself in some dramas so you will find yourself 'chained' to the plot.
c) Try bungee jumping in SINGAPORE
d) call up everyone in your contact list and just talk about nothing in particular
e) attempt to do some D-I-Y stuff. Emphasis on the word ATTEMPT. Haas...
f) Hopping on to a random bus and scoot from one end of the country to the next.
g) Bar- hopping? but that depends on your age and curfew. People associate clubbing with booze but in actual fact its oyur choice whether or not to drink. Its not to say i drink, cuz i don't and i don't want to. can't stand it. Don't want to try. It reeks... Yet, i want to feel how its like to be in a club. Exclude the drinking and the smoke!
h) Try every single food in town. Let your taste buds sizzle to the exotic ones! But, i will pull a stop on the DURAINS! they are the worse fruit one can ever find it in us to consume... And, its still known as KING of all fruits in our country... How can anyone even stay within one metre of it and not 'collapse' is really beyond me!
I) And, lastly if you really can't find anything to do: Book the next flight out of the country...
This list will suffice i guess.
P.s. Sentosa on fri! yea...
P.p.s. having a break soon.. countdown: one more day!
P.p.p.s. Still can't believe that NUM is like...
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Is it the peak season for marrages now? This year and the next year... There are like tons of wedding dinners to attend.. Not that i'm complaining.. My dad jus attended like 3 wedding dinners in a row.. from fri to sun.. imagiine it! He doesnt really like these kinda stuff and complained about it relentlessly. However, imagine the food dere.. Thats heaven.. Or rather most of it is i assume.. yes, i go there partly for the fabulous food and the lavish surroundings. So, GUILTY AS CHARGED! But who cares? As long as you make an appearance and give your well wishes, the rest can be taken in as well.. But, thats not to say i dont mean the blessings i give.. Because i do.
people marry for various reasons but the most common one being: IN LOVE. Thats the best wedding one can ever get i believe. whats better than marrying someone for a reason like this? Instead of the darker side of marriages: for cold, hard cash and an arranged marriage. Oh come on, who does this in this century? But, thats not to say there are not a few minorities who will do this. This type of marriage is what i would call a marriage without HAPPINESS. Imagine facing someone you loathe, or ok not exactly loathe to the core but just do not like in all the years to come. Do you see yourself in a joyous family gathering or do you see arguments stringing the marriage? Your life, your choice!
Come to think of it.. When someone marries, they will have a house. A spanking new HOUSE of their own! what not to like? I love looking at houses though its not as if i m goin to get one any time soon.. But it doesnt hurt to look and appreciate right? Well, so my dream house qualities: Dome- shaped attic, glass house by the pool or in the midst of a snow- covered forest, velet curtains, full- height windows overlooking the beach, open deck, sleeping porch built like a cave, glass conservatory containing a long strech of pool with chandeliers. Woah.. This is so amazing.. Throw in some gadgets such as a hidden bedroom, walk-in bathrooms, underground chambers, a detachable glass attic! Furnish it with sculptures and paintings whats not!
Definitely a mansion to yearn for. Yes, i know this is kinda impossible but i hav seen house: HDB houses that are modified to be kinda a perfect loft for the tired days. So, you neva noe, i might see this house one dy though not exactly afford it but looking at it would be nice! SO, that brings me back to travelling all over to look at houses.. Beverly Hills and whats not.. Bring it on.. A goal makes my life so much focused. But sometimes being spontaneous will be great.. Like when you are travelling... Its not exactly fun to plan everything ahead.. A few here and there yes but not all cuz where's the fun in dat? everything according to agenda.. BORING! ( however, if you are someone who gets lost easily, better get someone along and do not backpack alone.. haas.)
And, yes.. the 2 weeks break coming! And, i will be scooting off to Malaysia for my "so- called" hols.. But, thats better than being here.. Bored stiff.. Nothing and No where to fill my life.. Oh.. except to catch a few much needed winks! haas.. At least i m TRAVELLING...
Adios.
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Friday, December 08, 2006
Some drivers can be such jerks.. They don't want to stop at zebra crossings and even gave a smirk when confronted with the pedestrian. I mean.. come on, is having a car such a big deal? Must you be all cocky-willy? Is this what it is all about? Getting a car just for the glory and pride it involves? This is the character that results in the increase of accidents on the road due to road rage. People with big, inflatable egos( just waiting to be trampled...) are those who are what i call:" the non de car drivers". However, i guess buying a car is just a matter of an investment: whether you have the ability to hold on to the investment. Its all just a game of gambling, just like how life itself is a big gamble. If you struggle to maintain your car and end up losing everything else, is it all worth it? Just for a few moments of pleasure and you lay such a stake?
I have nothing against cars or car drivers for that matter. In fact, i believe cars help facilitate our daily lives in a way. Though considering the fact that our country is not exactly what you would call big and unreachable by foot an the extensive network of public transport, there's practically no need for a PERSONAL transport. Yes, thats it.
A personal transport.
I guess everyone just wants something we can call our own. Something thats within our control. Something that belongs. So, a car is the answer. We will be able to go as and when we like. Speeding off in the wee hours is more pleasurable since there will be no public transport avaliable then. Avaliable during an emergency getaway. Basically, just a set of wheels to take you everywhere. A personal investment nonetheless.
And so eventually, you will ask me: do i want a car then? Well, my answer will be kind of vague. I can say not really now but you neva know what the future holds rite? Firstly, i hav practically no sense of direction. Secondly, the mechanism involved is really... Lastly, you can't just abandon a car when you get lost, and flag a cab instead rite? There said, ask me 10 yrs down the road, i might hav a diff response altogether.
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Does being in a relationship means constant reporting to one another? Does it mean spending every waking moment with one another? Because if thats the case, it will beat the life out of it. It will seem as though you are being chained to someone or smth. After a few months, all the fun and excitement thats initially dere will be gone ( like the wind! ). Thats because you will get tired of one another. FREEDOM will be robbed of you and you will turn into a GROUCHY, GRUMPY, NAGGY, MISERABLE AND HAGGARD person altogether. All the past virtues will be forgotten and whats left will just be hate. I don like a CONTROL FREAK. Or shld i say i don like to be controlled. This is my life and i want to have a say in it. I know that this statement has incurred the wrath of my parents but this is who i want to be. I believe no one can dictate our lives and our destiny. Its all in our own hands.
The country is really stifling our lives. Its controlling the way we work. what with the rules and all. If given an opportunity, i would really like to travel. I wan to go to places wif historical monuments, scenic views, exotic cultures, amazing experiences. BAckpacking? well, thats a good tink but if backpacking involves insects and treks in the jungle? well.. i guess i would hav to pass it up then. But, mountains would be nice. I hav always wanted to take a picture of a snow- capped mountain and the dropping sun. Explorer? Not really because i hav not EMBARKED on my odyssey.
The time is not ripe yet. My chariot awaits my timely arrival. Reaching.
And, well.. though saying that this act of "reporting" is kind of not my cup of tea but a few calls of concerns will be nice. When you are down and wan a listening ear.. When you are happy and wan someone to share the joy.. It all comes together! If your partner doesnt care enough to call when you are down or so, i don tink you will feel great rite? That goes to say that constant reporting is a no- no but a few now and then in the day will still be ok.
Its smth of a blend: not too much and not too little.
Fine, i m no guru but i jus chanced upon this article which says smth bout this topic and jus feel that i hav smth to say. The above is just my comments and nothing more.
P.s. waiting to fly, to travel and to indulge in photography( though i m no photographer.. )
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Noticed commuters on a train in the morning rush hour...
Sleeping heads bent low. Sleeping against the pane. Sleeping mouth open. Sleeping and snoring. Sleeping with hands propped on the knees. Sleeping against the door while standing. sleeping on their partner's shoulders.
Thats the "style" today for sleeping on the train. The morning rush hour is the time where corporate people are catching up on their sleep. Its also the time where people are at their most natural self. People worry about their appearances but when they sleep, its as if this subject does not appear impt to them anymore.
Why is this so?
Fatigue. In most of our lives, everything is moving too fast. Its as if the world is spinning and churning you out in the process. Sometimes all we ask for is just a break. Yet most of the times, we cant get the rest we want. Its normal for a country like ours to be moving in this kind of pace. Go to a rural habitat. Go to a forest habitat. You will hav a culture shock! But then to say, who wouldn't like sleeping? I like it and so do you.
Anyway, thats all fer now.. really tired..
P.S. Goong part2? hmm..
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Went to Queensway to eat mac aft grammar test-- the first time there.. It seems as though i'm a tourist exploring the unknown part of the country. Well, though the shops are not opened yet when we went for breakfast, it still never fail to amaze me! However, the place reeks of rubber smell and that of new shoes! And, aft dat we journeyed to IKEA which was also a first for me. Ok, i know a lot of ppl hav been to this place one time or the other over the years. Yet, this is truly my first time there. Fascinated by the restaurants, the shops and the main focus: The furniture! Yes, i saw a lot that i would like to get my hands on but its supposse to be DIY! Thats like Design and Technology in sec sch and i m not much of a technical person. Ask me what screw to use? i don tink u will get a satisfactory ans from me.. haas. I mean why cant they just fix everything for us, just like normal furniture shop does? Make us go through all the hard work and if the table or chair we DIY-ed collapsed, all our hard work will go into the drain. yes, just like dat. But, besides all that, i saw smth i would really like to hav: a canopy bed! Or a canopy for my bed? ( does it make a diff?) Its really so nice and some even have this victorian style to it.
Have you ever walked under the stars and felt that they are following you?
Felt the night breeze whispering to you?
The tingling feeling that make your pulse runs, just a wee bit faster?
Thats what the night does to you. Cruising along the pathways, floating up and away, jostling crowd in the bustling city( that we can do without.. argh), finally just you and me. I always love the night the best of all times because thats the time where people no longer rush about for work or anywhere for that matter. Thats the time where people are stripped off their defences and run amok? The darkness can also serve as a shield to hide our flaws. Lastly, not forgetting the emotions involved-- the happiness, the sadness, the surprise and shock. everything and anything just seem to stop at this juncture but the partying will start. Yes, this is because the night is still young and wild. everything takes on a whole new meaning and a new lease of life on its own..
i love the night, do you?
p.s. i just saw a bird at my window.. wanted to take a close- up shot at its facinating eyes but...
Beauty in the eye of the beholder;
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