Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Its a moody post so be prepared.. Not in one of my best moods definitely..

Why?

I broke it. How can i do that? though i know its not on purpose but its really my treasured possession.. Something dear to me has been broken.. Its wings tattered and shattered.. Not exactly in bits but still.. It still hurts.. ' Crack'. Just like that.. It reminds me.. Everything in our lives are fragile and we might hurt them whether intentionally or not.. Sometimes words hurt like a slash on ur wrists and blood seeped through the wound, but.. those who said them might not necessarily bear a grudge or a certain amount of hatred towards the victim. Its all ACCIDENTAL.

But who knows? Not you and neither the victim. My victim, i mean.

Why is it a treasured one? Well.. it kindof carries a special meaning, a certain amount of significance on a special day. It kind of has some sort of representation that serves as some kind of bond attached to smth that no longer belongs. Not to me anyway. And, this is really one of a kind. i can't bear to look into its doleful eyes and not be sorrowful of the mishap. well, i might be able to repair it but once broken, its neva the same again.. Ever.
The wings no longer gleaming upon its back, the shine gone no matter how hard i polished. And, upon its solitude, the lights cast a dark gloom, as if enveloping it into the dark lord's lair.

But, rest assured i will get it up on its feet again! In no time.. ( This is jus a tad sentimental but well.. Cuz it is too..)

Next, the next bad thing on my list.. As promised a gloomy post, and what now.. My disappointing results! credit given that at least i passed but just passing is not that great.. at least to me.. because when i chose this path, smth i loved( yes, even now..) i thought i will be able to be at least better than those everyday maths and sciences.. so, imagine the disappointment.. Though actually i kind of expect some of them to be that bad but those of which i hav more confidence in, i din do as well.. See what i mean? expectations. But, since its all been done. Everything down on black and white..( ok, not exactly.. there are some colours!haa..), i might as well move on.. no point in weeping over spilled milk which u cant possibly lick back in again.. so, i guess its jus a promise to myself of a better semester and a better GPA.

Lastly, my worst thing on my bad list.. At least to me i feel that it is.. somewhat constitutes to my gloomy post.
DANCE during psf session.. I MEAN COME ON.. THIS IS NOT A JOKE RIGHT?i cant dance for nuts or rather nutcases... And, i don even hav a dance lined up yet.. Help is really needed but who gives? I know i asked sp to help me but still waiting for her reply.. If she really cant, i guess i will be left to accept the punushment.. actually come to think of it, the punishment doesnt really seem so bad aft all.. Haa..see what i mean? Insanity at its peak!

Oh, and yes.. i hav a flim critique to do.. For SgNewWave.. I muz really get to it soon..
Ok, right.. End my gloomy post with a gloomy farewell..
And, even though its a gloomy post, i still give my well wishes to Mr. blogger and all those who even attempt to read my blog entry.. haas.. My heroes.. here's to u: *bow*

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