Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Aft the minor prod, things hav become monotonous.. All those weeks and prob mths of rehearsals towards a significant goal.. its finally over, yes. But, now i m complaining that the days r kind of boring, with days either slacking at home or jus strolling down town for a breather and some 'squeezes and bumps'-- The shoppers' syndrome, they called it. But, what i m trying to convey is jus simply that.. Yes, its great to be free and all, but now it feels as though i m floating towards not a buoy, nor an anchor. But, one tink i m not complaining.. my time to be free, to be jus the way i wan it.. ( thats before i find a job..)

Ytd, psf session.. hmm.. wat do i say? well.. its been great to get back to the games and stuff.. trying out diff scripts.. And, basically jus relaxing and concentrating on havin a gd time.. Actually, there r both sides of the coin.. Having a production is great.. its as if there's smth to look forth to, to show what u hav learnt, but yet if the time between them r too short, its kind of tiring.. We don get to really immerse ourselves in the actual fun of all.. So, prob a 2 mths or 3 mths duration wud be fine.. Cuz i guess, by that time we wud be ready? i dunno.. But, lets jus assume.. At least, there's smth to look forth to..

Lastly, lata goin out wif rou.. she wans to cut her hair.. hmm.. good statement, its not even me hu's cutting.. gif me 10 gd reasons to go wif her.. haa.. cant find one.. but, nvm.. i m free anyway.. And, ok.. aft dat goin for some kinda shopping at ps? or whichever place.. And, yes.. tmr.. its teachers' day.. hmm.. or rather a pre- celebration as what the schools do every year.. And, tis yr.. i did not spend it in NC.. Oh, but that's an IF i decided not to go.. Which i m considering.. On the one hand, i feel like goin back to look at how the sch's become.. But, yet on the other hand, i don really hav the upbeat feeling of going back.. haa.. ok.. kind of contradictory.. But, who says i hav to be reasonable in my daily ramblings?

Not you, and neither I..

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Saturday, August 26, 2006

The exams hav ended on an ultra high note.. the results not our yet.. but i gotta be happy.. because at least its all done.. i hav my freedom... about 2 mths of long break.. Vacation is the word..

But, ytd is the real release.. yesterday minor 1 prod came to a closure.. a success.. I'm not sure bout the feedback.. but at least to me, i hav enjoyed.. i guess thats enough at least for now.. i noe i may not be the best actor, but to me if i hav given my best, i'm satisfied.. I hoped the emotion flow manage to convince the audience.. i hoped i hav not disappointed anyone.. Anyway,its over.. But, i hav to thank a lot of ppl who hav helped me along the play, who pushed me over the limits, to rake up some kind of emotions in me.. My Heroes:Dennis for his help in bringing up my emo( though he's 'jokes' r so lame.. haas), Shad for those sessions u spent coaching us ,thanks.., and to shron, kris and kim and my SM.. haas.. u guys were wonderful in coaching me.. A big bow to my heroes.. haas..
And, well thanks partner..

When i first get onto the stage, the audience appear menacing... its really 'woah'.. i noe tis is not the first time i'm on stage, i shld not be nervous, but hey.. every experience on stage is different.. Butterflies in the stomach is jus normal.. NORMAL.. But, i realise one gd tink bout controlling nervousness-- look at someone u noe, who's not the first time watching this play..haas.. at least i noe these ppl wont laugh.. But, its really nerve- wrecking yet i shall contradict myself to say that i hav really enjoyed myself.. As what Mr. 'green apple' said: " whats most impt is to enjoy urself on stage..".. I rem tis instructor from sec sch always said this to us before we go on stage.. And, i guess its really true..

Aft the whole tink, everyone was in total exhilaration.. We hav mega feasting on pizza and kfc.. a long table.. kind of like LAST SUPPER.. the da vinci painting.. but, its not.. cuz PSF still hav a long way to go.. as long as the word committment is there, passion is there and dedication there.. haas.. cant wait for next week training session.. i always luv trainings cuz there r games... drama games always make my day!

Lastly, thanks to those who came to support me.. really appreciate it.. it really does make a difference!

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Ice cream really helps when u r down..
It did for me.

Sometimes we bother too much bout how ppl look at us,
only to find that we don necessarily enjoy the moments.

We only get to live once for who we are,
It's only right that we get to enjoy the one chance, right?

When i listen to the farmiliar voice,
the words reverberating my surroundings,
I know its you.

Ok, so yea... in jus an hr or so, i m setting out for sch.. for my final exam.. medsoc... well, its actually the onli exam we hav.. excluding marketing test, that is... And aft which, no more sch for me.. but the down side will be of rehearsals.. BUt, hey.. they are so much better than exams.. I'm sure those who are having exams now will agree wif me, no less..

guess i will go prepare for sch now... And catch some cool video fottages at youtube.. ha.. tata..

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Weeks turn into nights, days turn into fall... Everything goes by in a blur of an eye.. And, minor 1 production is approaching soon.. real soon.. i din even realise it but nxt week is already the big day.. The day where all our efforts for the past one mth or so will be showcased.. The day where we hav to put our best forth.. to make our first production a success.. After this, a well-deserved break will be great! i mean it..

But, before this,there are still rehearsals, bump-ins?( actually, just knew what this word meant.. teeheee..)And, throughout all this, i hav to thank so many ppl who coach me on my acting.. on my free-expression, on my body language.. All these ppl who made my performance kind of better as compared to previous failed attempts.. Be it personal coaching or group.. it helps.. haas..

I really wish and wish that this whole tink will turn out fine.. I don want these ppl whose efforts to help me, be wasted.. i don wan the hrs spent on this play, be wasted.. i don want to give a bad performance, to disappoint everybody.. So, i hav to gif it my best shot.. right?

Some people ask why i keep joining drama..
Is it that i love drama that much?
But, the first step when i joined ELDDS
its actually because of slacking
Now, the second step
towards PSF..
I realise, its not a word as simple as slacking anymore..
Well, it might be that there's no room for slacking here,
BUt, the real reason to me might be that i hav truly learnt..
to like drama..
Or i love to watch theatre plays..haas

In drama.
everyone has a plethora of faces,
everyone different and unique.
On stage,
you are a different somebody,
you get to experience the various emotions.
Just for that minute, that second..
you get to be in another's shoes.
In real life,
its different from reel life.

Enjoyment.Excitement. Exuberence = Drama

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Monday, August 14, 2006

A few more days before i turn 17...
Reflections on the past year:

.. i took my first job at F.C.U.K
.. enjoyed my time at IRAS
.. took my 'o' level results
.. passed my maths n a.maths for once
.. left NCHS
.. made my choice of joining Ngee Ann Poly, Mass Communications
.. first day of school
.. a let down towards someone
.. a surprise declaration
.. joining Poly Stage F'Actor
.. debut performance in PSF
.. made lots of great frens
.. lost some close contacts
.. realise the importance of friendship
.. exploring the night Singapore
.. enjoying the fireworks

I asked myself... did i truly enjoy myself this past year, these past months? i only hav the answer: a mixture of both. Sometimes the weeks can stretch where my life is as plain as broth, sometimes the days will be as glorious as the next... Before i came to realise, around 4 mths of poly life has gone by in a blur... many happy and sad moments... i hav gained and lost... Disappointments and longings.. smiles and laughters...

When i look at the people who throughout all this upheaval, still remained close to my heart.. i wonder if i shld hav a smile plastered upon my face or shld i shake my head in disappointment at the loss? Those who are there, and those who aren't.. As long as i know you, a fren u hav became..

To those i hav hurt unintentionally, i can only offer my apologies.. I hav no idea what the future offers and what i will hav to encounter.. but, is there really a tink as forever? i really do not know.. but, its really in the pits to know that i caused heartache.. don drop a tear because i m not worth it? With partings come heartache, with new lease come laughter.. besides wishing for your happiness, tell me what else i can do.. leave everything to fate... i believe in destiny..

If ever a listening ear is needed, i will be there..
This is a promise.

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Our dear Mr. bird, along the shores of Singapore river...

See our pictures on a slab of concrete.. They carved our pictures there like famous celebs... Haas..

See the creation... nothing much but kind of enjoyed doing it...
To capture the moments of the night..

Our debut performance! haas..

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Saturday, August 12, 2006

I guess i hav not been much of a frequent blogger u wud call now.. I used to be.. But, thats well before all the tests and assignments, projs and rehearsals roll in.. Now, finally.. i can take a breather.. There's still de last medsoc exam but at least marketing is over, projs all done, last presentation on webgraph left... I hav the whole of nxt week free, only goin back for one day presentation, and cca... (grr..)... So, i m singing at the top of my lungs now.. soaring to freedom! the bliss of peppering music!

Ok, lets take a walk down memory lane...

Last week, graphcom presentation was *bleugh*. The comments given were kind of harsh, but it seems that they do this to most groups.. BUt, yet... Its our first afterall... kind of disappointing aft all the hard work we hav gone thru.. Or ok, credit given that most stuff r last min.. but, before going into the room.. everything was just fine.. even feel prepared.. but, were trashed the moment we give out our namecards... AS in, duh...

Next, webgraph.. is Michele's last day... he's leaving.. prob goin back to finland? or Italy? Forgot where's he from... Somewhere between the 2? And, he was kind of telling us his story.. life story? haa.. But i was listening in and out.. so only get to catch bits and little.. But, conclusion.. he's a nice guy.. a good lecturer.. But, the words cool and funky seem to fit him more.. And, he travels.... I wish i cud do that someday.. travel around the world.. the wonders and the magnificence..

Ok, then sat, which is ytd as a matter of fact, is the big marketing test!! The test most 'anticipated'.. the one i don even hav the time to study for.. what with rehearsals and all.. reaching home at 11 plus.. staying back at sch for projwork.. But, well aft late nights and all.. the day finally came and the test was over in 2 hrs.. yipee.. I mean its not that i hav absolute confidence i will do well since i hav 6 marks deducted already.. just for some wrong illustration... But well.. at least the worst is over? and only one exam left and i will be free to rise.. free to do whatever i wan for like 2 mths...

Ok, then aft marketing test, went ot watch-- My Super Ex-Girlfriend... Kind of lame to a certain extent.. And, almost paid extra for a tic.. good tink the ticketing guy rem me.. if not one movie ticket's worth of money will fly away.. *woots!*
" u mean the big rock?"
"no, the ham.."
(looks at him)
"of course, its the rock..."
Ok.. this is the funny part but u muz be dere to watch lo.. Its kind of bland to say it like dat..But, to tink that aft the movie.. we went to this korean shop.. and, i told someone by the name of haz(coughs).. that i m the 100th person to com into the shop so i gt a pack of rice free and she actually believed..Den chingui actually play along wif me saying that we hav a 20 dollars voucher too.. and we wan to buy ice creams.. And, hazizi actually say we buy other stuff first cuz the ice cream will melt.. oh my.. this is seriously hilarious... I had such a gd laugh..

In the evening went to meet cheng n rou to watch fireworks at esplanade.. woah... The first time snce pri 5 that i actually get to see fireworks live.. Exploding all over the night skies.. erupting volcano spewing lava... contrasting night sky...Its as if ur heart is soaring as u watch the fireworks dancing its own footwork in the sky.... As it grows bigger, my heart swelled.. the exhilaration is really at its peak...

But, aft that, when we try to make our way back home.. prob!!! we kind of gt lost when we try to walk to clarke quay mrt.. We almost toured the whole singapore: parliament hse, supreme court, padang, firestation, clarke quay pubs, singapore river... And, we found a nice ice cream stall.. Gelato dunno wat lo.. ha.. so yummy...

Lastly, i seriously met a lot of ppl ytd... jai and Ningxi from IRAS... Met jai at orchard dere n we talked.. And ningxi at suntec and she still tink i m lost lo.. wa... den met VEFFECTS family... asked them for directions but like a lot of help.. ha.. But, thanks anyway.. Nice meeting u guys!! Its such an amazing tink... Among the sea of ppl, among the diff faces, we found each other..

Fate is really an amazing tink.. They find u at the moments u least expected.. If u believe in fate, u will see that its really there.. its true.. Sometimes we don treasure ppl close to us, but when they leave, u hope and hope to see them again.. even if its jus for a glimpse.. And, when we really meet, its fate that draws us together.. If we don, well... its jus clear that fate is not wif us.. But, putting too much on fate is not really sane i guess.. Its jus smth nice to hold onto..

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Another day at home.. another day of boredom? fret not.. i hav tons of projs at hand.. tmr there's a big marketing presentation that's worth 30% of the whole module's marks.. And the worse tink being that i cant even go to sch n discuss with my grp members.. feel totally unprepared for tmr.. Like an eagle scouring for its prey, i can't find mine.. whats more, tmr first day returning to sch aft 3 days of mc, and hav late rehearsals.. With a 'throaty' voice like mine.. i don even noe if i can make it happen.. Tests, exams, projs.. everything has been rubbing me all this week.. Is it time to take a flight?

I wish for this week to end.. for everything to come to an end.. at least nxt week, there will be no lectures and prob some of the tutorials too? nxt week will be all at home studying and rushing projs and tying those loose ends..i suppose.. but, i dunno for sure..

grumbling..

Staring into space... ( msn messages keep bekoning me1 argh..)

i wan to sleep.. i m turning into a grouchy old fella.. lack of sleep..

heavy dosage of med does this sometimes.. Careful: heavy duty calls! Ok, enough of all this kinda dumb ramblings.. i need to get to work, i need to focus, i need to tear myself away from blogger, i need to wait for my camera to finish charging before i can take my own pics n send to pearlyn for gracom, need to wait for the rest to tell em what they hav discussed for marketing, need to study for a possible retest for locvid which i m warned is deadly... Tell me, what else can i not do?

Excuse my mad ramblings once again..

P.s.disappointed in you.. my fren..

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;

Thought everything's fine jus a moment ago,
but its not ever.
thought i belonged,
But, apparently i'm lost.

I tried to hold on,
a belief,
that message's lost in transition.
That this is not ignorance,
and everything will be fine.

Fit as a fiddle.

I opened the valves,
letting you in.
But you did not stay,
Yet, you left a gaping wound.

Who are true and who aren't?

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;