Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Friday, July 21, 2006

Its been kind of a long while since i last blogged.. A week? or maybe more.. that's the longest period of time i hav gone without blogging.. Why? everything boils down to one main concern: time. Some days i wished a day consists of 36 hrs instead of a mere 24 hrs.. Too much to do, too little time to accomplish the tasks delegated. Time is not enough to do my part.. Talk about 8 hrs of sleep? forget bout it.. its not possible..

For this past week, how has it been like for me? Staying till late everyday aft sch, slogging my guts out for tests( though only one!) and projs, melting my script for psf first minor production... one word-- School! I m starting to hav no life.. I know these hav been going on for a while.. And, they might be jus nonsensical ramblings to others, but argh.. this is jus insane..

But...

When things start to lose their gravity, i stopped. I pondered. What are the things i like about this school? There, i found it! I recalled.. the first week of sch, i was like a lost sheep waiting to be herded and now, this sheep has found its way home.. I stripped down my defences, away from all the sercurities i hav in my life then.. to venture into NP on my own.. I hate the distance.. I hate how big the school is( opps, cuz i get lost easily.. haa).. I hate how different everything is.. I hate how i hav no farmiliar faces to tie me back to the past.. I hav a much hated life then..

But, it is this moment that really made me perk up again.. After that initial first week, things start to pick up.. I realised that though there r projects n datelines to be met, i kind of enjoyed what i m doing.. Though some stuff i m not good at, but the interest is there, the passion is there. Just like one of our production -- L.A.M.E... ( shall not divulge any details here.. but don judge by the name.. haa..). And, not forgetting a bunch of funky, lame , over- the- top and spunky friends.. With these ppl, anything can happen.. ( u neva noe when a hand's coming out from somewhere.. to..) ok... well, its jus different.. And, in this difference, I feel at ease.. not the 'lonely' soul i was then..

I have a dove,
who loves to bath,
After the bath,
it huffs and puffs.
After huffing and puffing,
it eats cream puff..

ok, this is the kind of crappy and spontaneous thing that will occur when u r with this bunch of people.. Just random..

Next, how can i ever leave out psf? they too play a crucial part in my life in NP.. once i settled down... When u join a club, suddenly there's this sense of connection, of belonging.. its as if, u noe there's this bunch of ppl hu r in the same place as u.. Walking around the campus doesn't seem so bad afterall.. Last thurs session, in the 'sauna'.. haa.. we ran thru the play.. i melted the lines jus 2 hrs before.. I dunno if its due to worrying bout the lines that affected the performance or what.. BUt, i agree that our play is seriously not up to mark.. I m not into the character.. As what Dennis said, yea.. we r kind of robotic.. no emotions r played.. instead we kind of downplayed the whole emotional scence.. it might be that this is the first time i m acting something emotional.. I jus need more time.. i make a promise to myself.. now.. from this moment on.. i will get into the characte asap.. i will do what's required of me.. i noe i m not a gd actor.. i m not good at conveying my emotions.. but, since i m casted this role, i feel that i hav a sense of responsibility to complete it.. to do it well.. I'm willing to work on it..

Why do i always end up being in drama? sec sch years and now this.. my stepping stone, my reason for joining drama in sec sch is a plain-- " there r no auditions". And now, i hav grown to love theatre.. i love watching.. That's y i noe i m not a good actor.. But, well.. i jus love being part of it.. Don always hav to be a bright star, a production takes more than a single hand.. everyone plays a part..

Ok, lastly.. i hav filming this sunday.. even my sundays r robbed of me.. my pleas of help were ignored! nah.. jus kidding.. well, just get it over with.. there r more projs to come.. so y not? And, i m playing with the 'fishpole' and the mic now.. Except.. prashant take the slate away.. evil evil.. i wan to play wif it.. its kind of cool.. how often do u get to play wif equipment that film directors use? See.. this is MCM! life here jus rules.. for the fun part anyway! haa..

ok.. signing off.. hav a great day ppl!
listen to teddy geiger..
watch the last episode of green forest, my home..
watch lakehouse!

P.S. national day! (woah.. when did i become so patriotic?)

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