Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Malaysia trip.. yipee.. ok.. actually its not really yipee in the sense of yipee but yipee in the way of being able to catch up on stuff and a break from all the projects tugging at me over in Singapore.. I think its a well- desreved break, Cuz i hav neva worked so hard before n neva slept so late before, even during the'o' level period.. Neva before.. ha.. but well.. let me break down the journey.. Actually, we spent most of the time in the coach, travelling but its really tiring n i slept a lot, though fitfully.. We stopped over at temples and shopping malls.. its really a one-day tink, rush affair and all.. but really enjoyned catching up on all the various news in everyone's lives.. about what's happening in everybody's lives-- school and all.. yes,i will not say its fun in a whopping sort of way but rather a relaxed mood, an an escapde from the swarm of projs.. a good tink i guess..
But smth happened ytd too... made me pause in my footsteps n really think over who my real frens are.. made me think who r the people who r really dear to me n how do i make them feel like how they made me feel? Sometimes i feel really dejected.. down in the dumps when i really stop n think as much.. it seemed as though what i hav created is jus an illusion or a mirage.. its not real.. no real ties are involved, no real bonds are forged but rather 'false assumption'. Is this really the elevator i hav created? The stairway i hav bounded myself against? is there anything at all worth reminiscincing? No? There's sure to be smth.. there is sure to be..

what about the times when i throw back my head and laugh? the times when we shared a tear? the times when we studied vigorously? the times when all seemed to go wrong and u guys were by my side? i don mean a single person but rather everyone i hav ever known.. No one in particular.. The ones who are always there for my pleas n cries.. the ones who are just aquaintances.. the ones..

i hav no idea how things transformed and transcended from jus simple stuff but that's how things worked.. in their own way, with their own mind. There's simply no explanation for all the complications that arise out of a root.. nothing..

Sometimes i ralise i fall into smth too fast, too furious n by then when its time for me to crawl out of the furnace, i will be pricked from head to toe.. gruesome n pain.. I can't control how this happens but things jus hav a way to lose control around me..

i hav no idea..

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;