Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

i dunno where to start with or rather whether to even start it.. well.. its jus pressurising me.. forcing me to make decisions that i neva wan to, don dare to even.. i used to love those great times that really helped make me relax and let all defences down but now i m not so sure.. i don wan to leave jus because of it.. i m no quitter.. i don like to gif up the things i like.. N now doesn't make a difference.. yet, everytime i jus dread them.. i dunno why.. and probably a part of me doesn't wan to recognise that the problem is dat.. all this is amounting to nothing.. nothing at all.. in de end, its jus awkwardness and unrequited stuff that i m not mentioning.. If ever i meet a fairy god- mother, i wud ask her jus for a wish to change what is happening now, or rather find me an ans to solve the mess i m in..
i m sinking deeper.. deeper into the oasis.. and hopefully once i reached the bottom of the oasis, i will com to a conclusion.. i will find my path.. i will com out from nothingness.. till then, i m stumped.. trapped.. kicked in the gut..
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ok, so mon passed uneventful.. normal drone of the lecture.. momotonous but comforting in the sense dat dere's no changes.. no surprises? nothing out of the ordinary happened, nothing really sudden take place.. calming.. soothing.. And oso sleepy! ha.. Tues, which's ytd.. well.. a full day for me.. from early morn classes to cca in the evening.. a treacherous trek in time.. the locvid class we learned bout sound stuff.. n im de 'impt' person-- the mixer.. ha.. so fun.. controlling the sound of the talents and so on.. but, then.. its a really dry module.. veru technical based.. And, next hav proj n debate discussions.. (psst.. i haven written my script for tmr's debate.. help!!!) wa.. And last but not least psf in the evening.. its quite a small turnout for tis week.. prob due to common test week but den some mcm ppl oso did not turn up n we hav no tests.. so well.. its prob due to proj.. prob i shld jus stay home n finish my proj.. now i hav tons breathing down my neck.. threatening to explode..And.. yes.. went home late.. at around 1030.. without much of dinner so in e end gastrics which was so teribly unbearable..
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Well.. with dat, i better end my piece n start wif my debate piece n then logos n then bauhaus.. argh.. help..
p.s. actually, i kind of look forth to goin malaysia this weekend.. a small escapade, nonetheless.. kind of gif me a much- needed break..
till then..

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