Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Saturday, May 06, 2006

hey aye, i do feel so free all of a sudden.. remembering during sch terms, in sec sch, no way do i get all these extra hours of rest.. So shld i be glad or not? well, seriously speaking, being too free all of a sudden makes me feel wierd all over.. when i look around, everybody in sec sch or jcs are mugging hard for their exams and mid-yrs but i m here sittin in front of a lifeless form-- typing fervently, passing time..

Now, i hav the time to really pause in my footsteps and really ponder over my descisions in a lot of things-- in my pathway of education, in terms of ppl,in terms of my future. All three are broad topics that i hav made, i hav taken a stand.. Come to think of it, what will i be doing now if i joined a junior college instead? will i be struggling with the workload, or will i be breezing thru and indulging in the vibrant campus life? If i chose to stay and not break off ties, what will happen to both parties now? will it blossom or will it falter and wilt? Will what we once have still remain the same, or will it not.. To my future, since i hav chosen what i wan when i enter a polytechnic, is it my right choice? Will i really succeed in my chosen field or will i live to regret my descisions? Something called to mind:" what we have is what we worked for, even if it means regrets but we shld be firm in our threshold against all odds.. There is no time for regrets and self-pity, what we shld devote our time to is to make our regrets wonderful and make our choices turn out to be the best in our life!"

I hav not regreted any choices i hav made and i m proud to say that.. though i noe in the process of making my stand, i hav hurt some deeply but i can only apologise. I do not want any of this to happen but since everything is in the course of actions, what regrets we hav now will oso not be able to reverse the situation. So, why regret? i tell myself:" i love my sch now, i luv the ppl there,i am sure of the choice i hav made, i wont live to regret.." haa.. some might say this is jus my naive thinking, but i jus like things as they are.. Thinking too deep, too complicated ,jus hurts.

Now, i muz try to embrace the sch as my second home, the ppl there as my closest family, the modules as my limbs and arms that take me as i climb each level in the steps to success-- graduation!And, i will..

p.s. singapore media developments in this one week? what does it mean? still searching..

p.p.s still searching...

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