Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Monday, May 15, 2006

well, i dunno wat to say about yesterday.. But tis tink is really freaking me out.. i cant stand it anymore.. the forthrightness scared me, the confessions thrown me off guard.. its not possible.. cuz it jus wont work out.. Y cant human relationships jus be purely simplified and not a whole ton of tangled lines, complicating stuff? Can't a guy and a gal ever be jus frens? wat's so wrong about being jus frens, normal frens or close frens.. well, at least the relationship is easier.. i hav no idea.. But, what's happening now is not what is supposed to be.. what's happening now is really beginning to scare me, a little i guess... i dunno how to face tis and neither do i noe how to solve tis.. Everything is thrown into a tangled web of feelings and emotions, like s 'spider web' where the prey cant get out even if it struggles hard.. It will jus be a fruitless attempt.. And, it all come to the same conclusion:" complication and impossibility"..

If things are much simpler, and things don spin out of control, a friendship might even blossom.. But, now, tis moment, i dunno what's going to happen yet.. tell me..
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Ok, so well, today started quite a bore.. the lecturer drone on in class and ppl were falling asleep.. Well, not me.. cant la.. he my fave teacher lol.. haa.. Muz try to pay attention besides de fact that he's my fave teacher.. ha.. i better not say y he's my fave teacher though i tink most of de ppl in my class wud noe lo.. hee.. ok, hav to pay attention cuz we r like suppossed to shoot a scene wif the dv- camcorder nxt week, and frankly speaking i m still quite blurred by wat has been taught tis few weeks in classes.. ha.. ok, And interestingly we get to sorta 'script' our own short clip, find an actor to star in our clip and direct it.. Oh, and i m in charge of the scripting part.. fun i guess..i jus like to script.. hee..woah.. lots of work i guess.. And jus fer a 15 to0 mins clip we hav to spend 3 to 4 hrs on it.. wa.. 'fabulous'? ha.. actually, i guess tis is all part and parcel of what being a mass- commer is all about! all projects... So, ppl still tink tis course is kinda prestigious n nice and all, but see tha amt of effort we hav to put in..

Ok, And aft dat went to de lib to get some work done on our web graph proj on some kinda production houses stuff.. And, glad to say we made some headway after all and at least gt to a headstart n discuss some general stuff.. Now, still hav de green tea proj which is on quite a dead end, and my graph comm tink.. Oh, still hav CATS? woah... i hav totally lost track of how many proj i hav to do.. And tests and exams? hmm.. Tis seems like a case of paranoid..
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what shant said jus now rings a bell in my head.. i rem someone telling me smth similar too.. He said that to be frim on my stand and don be so good to everybody.. hmm, and be meaner to ppl.. well, i don really get it.. he asked smth like when did i ever get angry or smth.. jus like wat someone told me then.. And it really set me thinking..
i mean, come to tink of it.. i seriously don get angry much, or if i do i m not really that kind of person hu screams my head off or swears at ppl.. i feel wierd jus swearing.. like the words don belong to my mouth..But, actually tis is quite a negative social psychology tink, cuz i keep all my repressed anger inside? but, i seriously cant get angry at ppl, (wif the exception of my parents.. haa.. serious!).. i tried to get angry at someone hu really gets on my nerves and u noe wat.. de next moment dat person said smth funny n i end up apologising for wat happen.. don ask me y.. i don even understand myself..grr..

So well.. wat can i say?

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