Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Ok,now i better not spend so much time here.. I seriously need to catch up on all the projects that are really piling up beneath my nose.. the assignments.. the studying.. Woah, starting off with a list of projects to do: graph comm on bauhaus design concept to do a brochure, web comm on a production house, marketing on a proposal on a new green tea product, media in society on media updates and designing of own quiz... Assignments: reading up on location video prod, media society and marketing..

Really.. a lot rite? cant believe it.. i m really so lagging behind and yet now i m sitting here(in front of a com) typing away.. not slogging on my projects and assignments. Aft today's tutorial classes which i hav gained much more in- depth of points i'm unclear of, i m kinda satisfied.. but jus hav to really do some catching up..

And, sat i still gonna head back to sch for an event-- supposedly some arts event that PSF is involved? but well, enough.. tmr still gonna go out wif e-filing ppl, so better catch up now.. More updates later.. Now, see below..

I jus read this fabulous book and would really love to share my thoughts and feelings involved.. By the time I finished this book from start to end, tears were streaking down my eyes in torrents.. ( well, all the author’s fault.. everytime I read any one of her novels, I neva fail to end up in tears.. haas..) well, the title of the book is Angels In Pink- Holly’s Story by Lurlene McDaniel.

This is an extract from one of the most devastating scenes that really washed my face with a fresh coat of tears.
Ben is a little child of 8 yrs old who was felled by a terrible disease of lukeamia and who was dying, yes.. jus at the mere age of 8.. he don desearve to die..
" I'm scared of the dark."
she glanced around the room. The lights were turned down low. Raina shrugged. Kathleen reached over and turned up the light box on thw wall behind the bed. "Is that better?"
He shook his head. " It's going to be dark inside that box they'll put me in. It's going to be dark under the ground, and I'm scared."
" I-- it's not that way", she said slowly. her mind searching for a way to help him understand.
" I don't want everybody to go off and leave me alone in the dark." His voice sounded pitiful and very frightened. Tears pooled in the corners of his eyes.

Ok, this really short extract of Ben's conversation with Holly and her friends, the pink angels, is something that's really moving.. An innocuous comment of his fear of death being displayed in this little extract, fans the readers emotions down to the point of dismay and sadness.. Ben is too young to die, jus like another character in the book( Holly's beloved brother, Raina's soulmate..).. why do they hav to die so young, and not having enjoying life to the fullest.. It's not fair.. Life shouldn't be like this.. Well, but even if death come as expectedly.. the ones left behind will never really be truly prepared for it.. Nobody will be prepared for what is going to happen to their lives... The process of departure will always leave huge gaping holes in the people that matter most to them, to the people who really cared enough to hurt, who really cared enough to weep.. Everyone's hurting really badly and though time will erase all despair, heartache and loneliness... the heart will always not be whole ever again-- there will always be a scar even if healing does occur.. To, Hunter and ben:" go along to the next phase of ur journey.."

From this book, lurlene McDaniel did a really good job on conveying the message that though people don really get to choose what life gives to them, they can choose how to cope with the various obstacles that are laid in their path. Don ask what life has to give, ask yourself what you want to give to make ur life whole!

These done, things said, Am i really able to let go?

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;