Magical TurnAbout-- Let Me Spin A Tale, A ThouSaNd LighTs, A StaGe as Grande

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Todae i wake up and it feels as if something's wrong, as if a piece of my life's been sucked away, leaving only the hollow case of mine.. Before todae, i spend almost every waking moment at work. but not now.. not anymore.. This morning, i woke up quite early and when i sat up on my bed, i suddenly feel as though i shld be somewhere instead of here.. yes.. at work..
But i m not really known for being a workaholic yet i feel somehow attached to work..I thought a lot, flashing thru memories and mostly thinking, and waves of desolation overcame me.. What's wrong with me? I enjoy the extra hours of sleep yet as i was doing housework, something doesnt click at all.. something's terribly wrong.. But i guess, i jus hav to take some time to settle down and really concentrate on my studies-- my next mission, my next task.

when I was young, a treasure map
was spread in my mind
making sure that someone unknown won't take
the miraculous place that I've been searching for
right now, it's life filled with dusts
someday, I'll leave it up to
everything's time
if the world ever changes
take me to myself that never knew a thing
making sure that memories won't fade away
copyrighted and extracted fromhttp://www.animelyrics.com/anime/onepiece/memories.htm

This time, yesterday.. what am i doing?

Searching for the farmiliar faces in the sea of people, like a hawk on its prey.. i found my buoy.

Now, sitting on the recliner-i spin, just like how my life is going to undergo a major construction. Apprehension at what's going to be in stall for me, being independent, making new friends, meeting new challenges. that's what it's like for school to start? i m not sure..
I enter the school, a foreign realm where all my uncertainties surfaced, where i feel so alone, so gutted. i don like it at all.. i start to regret my decision of not going into tp, where at least i can hold on to some anchor in the life i left behind. But, now nothing can be done anymore.. Nothing will be able to fan down my uncertainties and my wave of insercurities.. nothing. My first step out, a brand new beginning! A place with no past, only the future holds!

Beauty in the eye of the beholder;